God You're Cute

 When I think of you I think of the lyric,

"You're not good for me/

But baby I want you"

Funny thing is,

    you are good for me

    and I don't want you.

The funny thing is you're not even particularly remarkable

I always laugh too hard to make up for our awkward silences

I am not truly at peace when I am with you

But God.

You are cute.

Today I'm not thinking of you much.

Other days I think of you a lot

        Longing for some connection that we don't yet have

            may never have

        Longing for what could be,

            if everything goes a very certain way

The thought of romance

    Unlikely

    Foolish, even

But I wonder, and I dream it nonetheless

It comes in waves,

    this wanting

    this wondering

Does it cross your mind?

Do you dream it too?